Fail at something every day for a year.

I have been sick for 3 months. I don't care about succeeding or failing. I have been in bed or rallying myself to do what needs to be done and then going back to bed.  I have listened to Little Women by Louisa May Alcott and am now listening to Civil Disobedience by David Thoreau. I'm totally tired of just laying around and being sick, but sick failure is so lame.

I finished a few of furniture accents. Two pillows and an ottoman recover. I really don't love how it turned out, but it is a failure and it is finished and the finished failure is the goal right? It's not sloppily done, it just isn't perfect an every time I look at it, I think "failure" and have to smile because before now, I would take the whole thing apart and possibly never put it back together and it would be another unfinished project and not a finished piece of furniture. I almost quit working on it because it wasn't exactly what I imagined and yet because of my goal here, it is finished and maybe I won't care if people put their feet on it because of it's imperfections.  I will post pictures when the rest of the recovering job is complete. I've been sick now for almost three months. This has greatly helped me with not getting much done, but none the less I have started making progress on my goals despite my failings. I am working eve...

I love vision boards. I love finding pictures, making them, and looking at them.  I decided to make a vision board today. I got some used magazines from the library and I am creating a get healthy vision board. I don't know about anyone else, but I don't like exercising alone. Exercising is just an excuse to visit with people and since I like people it works, except when it doesn't. It is hard to find someone to workout at 4:30 or 5:00 am.  9:28 pm. That was short lived.  It's past 9 and I'm tired and the vision board isn't done. So what kept me from my goal. Went to Fit and Fall Proof class, but didn't teach cause I was losing my voice. Worked. Picked up son from class Drove son to another class only to find out I was a week early on their new schedule. Visited a friend. Helped someone find an attorney. Ran errands. Took son to another class. Made some Hot Tea mixture (my house smells like garlic and ginger). Made dinner. Took Dogs ...

I couldn't do it.  I just couldn't take it one more day. I had to set a goal and accomplish it or I was going to lose my mind. I decided to tackle the garage/studio. It's finished space and we have made it into a room for my creativity. It's hard to not let it spill all over the house. I have a tendency to go into one room, trailing a creative project along with me until the entire house is filled with creative license. It is insane most of the time, but I have contained everything into the garage space and I am willing and able to keep it there, The problem is that I have to do stuff out of the creative space if I am to run a household too, so I decided to organize it enough for us to have room to keep the projects in the space without it flowing out. I stayed up until 5:20 am cleaning and organizing and went to bed totally refreshed and ready to fail again tomorrow or should I say---today. I did fail at exercising. I was up and I did have the time. I could have do...

I hit a total wall today.  How does that even happen 3 days into failing? LOL. What I failed at today. I didn't exercise at 4:30 am even though I was up and twittling around the house. I didn't clean the entire house. In fact I didn't even get one room finished. What did I accomplish instead of my failing goal. I made a blog post on each of my blogs. I cooked a turkey and deboned it and made turkey soup and froze the rest. I did clean part of three rooms, but not deep cleaning which was my goal. I did school work with my son. I partially organized a closet. I served divorce papers to someone. I helped my son with some paperwork. Now... the question is,  Did I meet my goal? I accomplished a lot, but that isn't the point.  What is the point exactly?  Is the point to fail because my goals are too lofty?  (I think not). Is it to notice my failings, but put them into a good light? (maybe). Is it to let go of perfectionism? (easy to say, hard to do)...

This is not going well.  I totally got derailed today and so not only did I fail at cleaning my house, I didn't get much done all day.  I think broccoli is messy!

This is an interesting project. I decided to clean my entire house in one day. I began in Santa's workshop (ie- our bedroom) and low and behold at the end of the day, I was still in the bedroom working on it. It wasn't because it was an enormous mess, but I'm so easily distracted. ADHD is a real thing. I finally called in the troops to carry holiday stuff to put away downstairs. When I say at the end of the day, I mean 5:30 pm. I always want something accomplished by the time my husband gets home or I gets off work. In the past I've realized it takes me twice as long to finish a goal.  In the case of cleaning the house (to my perfection) I usually give up after two hours and go onto making more messes, but I stuck with the task.  I only got one room finished, so now I must move onto failing at being a success at my failure . Today I will attempt to clean my whole house excluding the one room I just finished. This is a lofty goal since holidays take a toll on our house...

Being a perfectionist stinks. I started to think about failure and failing and had to ask myself the question. Is it really better to try and fail or to not try at all?   Well... this journey is going to help me find out.   If I were to try to succeed at something every day with the idea of failure being the actual goal, would I be able to fast forward my goals and step up my game a notch? or would I get too overwhelmed by my perfectionism and quit. How can I fail at failing.  I think I can't.  Will I be able to actually fail at something every day? Will it be like the old movie "Brewster's Million"?  (Made into a movie 14 times and though I have not seen the 1980's remake, I love the old one- considered a lost film.) Will it be thrilling or depressing to try to fail over and over and over again? ? What would it feel like to be a deliberate and complete failure for a year? Maybe I will be the first successful failure.  RULES- I may ha...